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Allyson Lindt has been telling stories since before she could put the words on paper. She loves a sexy happily ever after and helping fictional couples find their futures together.

Loralie Hall is a cubicle dwelling drone who writes as other people in her spare time. Her life-long goal is to be the devil on the shoulder of the person who rules the world.

Thriving, motivation, and solid feedback

Back again to why I write, but along a different tangent this time. I belong to a couple of online critique groups. They're not the first I've belonged to, I even joined a couple before I ever knew what writing.com was. They are the only two I've ever stuck with, though.

All workplaces have their own culture. It's a combination of work-enforced values, and the personalities of the people who work there. Usually one lends itself to the other until they blend together and become a pretty pile of mud. The blending happens because if you don't agree with the company values and don't get along with your co-workers, you probably won't be there very long. And it has to be as a whole, not just one or two people you like. At least, that's the way it works for me. It's the reason I'm still honeymooning with New Job and wondering how I ever survived at Old Job.

Critique groups are the same. The group-enforced culture is the series of rules that determines who gets critiqued how and when. And then there's the other members. You don't have to write in the same style, voice, or genre of the rest of the group, but it does help if you all get along. To me that means feedback and constructive criticism is delivered and received in a way that benefits both parties. Everyone has a different method of voicing their opinion, but if one person consistently rubs another the wrong way with their feedback, even if it's meant 100% in the spirit of helping, it's not going to be well received. It becomes wasted time on the part of both parties.

Wow, that was really convoluted and hard to say. I should get a copy editor for my blog. *shouts at woman in next cubicle*. Hmm...she's not in yet...oh well.

So these two critique groups I belong to...the culture is helpful to me. I stay because I like the people, I like the feedback I get, and I feel like it's all helping me grow. And no, not all of it is glowing praise with no suggestions for improvement. In fact, very very little of it is.

A couple of days ago, the discussion came up about whether we as writers let our characters drive us, or whether plot is all-important. I usually fall on the character side of the argument. I write to give my characters a home. But it's not quite true. Both have to be there for me. I don't think of a character one day and say "What would Arthur do?" I think of a character and say "What would Arthur do if buldozers were waiting outside his house to demolish one morning so they could build a bypass?"

Character and plot intertwined. Of course, the answer in this case is obvious. His friend Ford Prefect would come along, stall the buldozers, take Arthur to the pub, and then give him a towel. But if I hadn't absentmindedly stolen the plot from a different novel, the answer might not be so obvious. I pick the place, I pick the character, I like them run rampant with each other.

What does this long rambling tangent have to do with why I write?
Something tells me I'm getting off-topic a little here. *tries to straighten things out*. I do all of this in my head. I picture the entire scene, I let it play out, and then I force it onto paper so I can read it and revel in its glory. And if it were up to me, it would stay in that form forever and I'd wince at some of the bad wording, but love the story all the same.

But since I like seeing my name in print, it's not all up to me. It has to be edited, revised, made comprehensive for anyone else who might read it. Which is where the critique groups come into the picture. AND (my final point), I had a revelation this morning after getting a fantastic critique from someone. Their feedback is the reason I write beyond the first draft. If my critique groups aren't interested enough to read it, the general public probably isn't, and I never edit it. The stories I don't get any feedback on sit and wilt on my hard drive, and rarely see the light of day unless I just love them so much that I think they're almost perfect in their first incarnation. (None of which has been published to date, despite my affection for them).

Apparently, a portion of my desire to create is tied to whether or not people are appreciating what I've already created. Feedback = motivation for me. No feedback = stare at a blank page and growl at half-formed ideas.

Probably not the most efficient way to go about things, but it's not like it's a conscious thing (or at least, it wasn't until this morning). I suspect I'm not the only one who feels this way, but I don't know...how does feedback (or lack thereof) impact your desire to write?

Before I forget

I meant to do this yesterday, and then had a totally different idea for blogging instead. I could have saved said idea in draft mode, and published this one yesterday and that one today, but I totally forgot about this one until now.

Mireyah tagged me...something about handwriting...and I promise I will respond in kind. Probably have to wait until the weekend because writing anything by hand except meeting notes during working hours is against my religion and never piss Loki off.

*deep breath*. Sorry about the run-on sentence. As Laura so kindly mentioned ^_^ my blog layout has changed. It will change a little more once I finally get my own graphics created, but I like the interim solution. I'm going to keep it mostly the same, just a few tweaks here and there. My wonderful Ay is sketching me for the blog header, and I've seen the preliminary and love it <3.

And when that happens (or maybe a little before) I'll be switching over to my domain name, too. I assume all of my bloger links will update appropriately, but if you have linked to me directly (wishful thinking ^_^), links will have to change to point to http://www.apathyshero.com.

I'll probably throw up an entire site when I make the change over. Well...microsite (as we say at work). You know, about page, published work page, samples page, things I feel like making a page for page...the possibilities are nearly (but not quite) boundless.

In the End...

YA Highway has posed a question, and I--being in a mood to put off the other work I should be doing--have decided I want to answer ^_^. The question: If you could rewrite the ending of any book, how would you rewrite it and why?

One of their examples, and many of the responses, were about Harry Potter. Which is a small shame because that was my easy answer. My co-author came up with an extended epilogue to the books. Picture this...after Harry and Ginny come back from the train station after seeing the little ones off to Hogwarts for the first time, he says he has a secret to tell her. Long story short, he confesses that he's the eight horcrux, and it's time for the world to know.

But...that's not my idea, or my answer. I just know Ay would want me to share.

My answer...(and this took a lot of thought, and my co-workers spent an hour or so trying to locate the source of the smoke). My Sister's Keeper by Jodi Picoult. It's possible I will offend most people who've read the book by saying this, so I apologize now. I also want to say up front, that regardless of the below I still thought the book was amazing, gripping, and compelling.

***Spoiler Warning*** (Duh?)
In the original ending, the main character wins her court case, but is in an accident after, placing her in a position to donate the transplant without doing her further harm.

My issue with this? The entire book was about this girl making this tough choice, and about how the sister's illness impacted everyone in the family. That was the conflict, that was what kept me reading. I kept telling myself that the author, through the main character, was going to have to choose one way or the other in the end. That this young girl would be required to decide something for herself and that it wouldn't be a decision she could take back.

So when Anna didn't have to decide afterall--when the both paths prevailed at the same time--I felt cheated. The judge ruled in her favor, and Kate got the kidney, but Anna never had to make that final decision.

Honestly, I don't know which way I would have preferred it go. There are haert-wrenching options both with Anna deciding to go through with the transplant and with her not, but I wanted to see her be forced to choose. That's what I felt like I was promised through the whole rest of the book.

Please don't throw tomatoes at my blog for thinking this...it was still an amazing story.

Inspiration and Formula

A few years back, a friend loaned me a copy of Fight Club by Chuck Palahniuk, telling me that the book was different than the movie. The book was good, and written in a voice that was new and amazing to me. So when I saw Diary on the discount shelf at B&N, I had to give it a try. I was astounded. Who was this man who wrote such unique stories in a distinct voice with some very cynical views on the world? Since then, I've read several of his books, and I've discovered (much to my disappointment) that he has a formula like every other author out there. It's much more subtle, and I would still recommend Survivor to anyone looking for a fantastic story (just skip the part about the lobster, trust me). But the formula still exists.

We had a discussion about this, my co-author and I. She said it wasn't a formula, it was a voice, and there was a difference. I agree, there is a difference, but after Lullaby she's changed her mind and we've agreed: formula.

Going back 15 or 20 years. I read a series of books by LJ Smith. Not Vampire Diaries - those wouldn't be released until later. A trilogy called (I think) The Game. Very basic premise - a young girl's grandfather is trying to break the barrier between worlds, and manages to summon some very cruel (Norse) gods. They want the child as an offering in order to go back home, he gives himself up instead. One of the younger gods isn't happy with this and he spends the majority of the girl's teenage years trying to take her back.

I read those books over and over, all the way into my late twenties. I don't know if I'd still enjoy them now, but they fascinated me back then. Two things about the books left a huge impression on me, and anyone who's read a couple of my novels will recognize this. The god who plays the antagonist in the story - a young and sexy Loki. He's all evil, very seductive, and just a little immature, despite being thousands of years old. The other character is a tertiatry character named Zach. He sits in the background most of the time with his silver ponytail, being aloof and just a little sarcastic, and the main character has just the slightest crush on him, which Loki uses to his advantage at times.

And therein lies the origins of my formulas and my inspiration. American Gods, Good Omens, and Small Gods (Neil Gaimen & Terry Pratchett) also have a heavy influence in about 50% of what I write, but they're not so much a basis for the recurring character archtypes I'm so fond of. (Wow, with all these book titles, I'm tempted to go get an Amazon associates account just for this blog post :-P)

Some days I think this is a bad thing. That a large number of my male lead characters share a handful of similar personality traits. Then I rationalize it away by telling myself if the story lines are different - therefore forcing them to react in unique ways. That's what I keep telling myself.

Now my perspective has been jaded. I've decided every writer must have an underlying thread of commonality in most of their work. I could be very wrong though. Agree? Disagree? What's your formula?

Something...just not the right thing

I spent the day writing yesterday. I clocked eleven hours at work and wrote almost the entire time - didn't even break for lunch.

Yay, right?

Not so much. I wrote reports. SQL queries. Data analysis. Information structured to someone else's specification in order to let them know that our business was growing their business. But at least I wrote, right?

I used to have dreams (like so many of us do) of writing a novel, selling it right away, and getting rich and retiring at a young age. My mother taught me that; she was constantly sending off manuscripts when I was younger, living off the same dream. I still fantasize about such a thing, but practicality and statistics have taught me that my odds aren't high.

It doesn't matter the way it used to. Don't get me wrong, I would still love for it to happen. It's not longer my driving motivator though. I've figured out *gasp* that I actually like creating. I still love seeing my name in print - it's why I continue to submit. I got my first magazine the other day with one of my short stories in it. Two copies. One stays in plastic and the other is already manhandled and has been drug around the house being admired.

It's not my day job, though. I don't know if I would ever want it to be. I'd still love to retire young, but writing is an escape from the every day. If it becomes the every day, will I analyze data to escape instead? Probably not.

So I have to wonder, why do other people write? Is it for the glory? To purge creative thoughts? To escape into a world no one else can enter without your permission? To save the world? Somthing else? What kind of demons drive us?

Getting it on paper

The founder of the company I work for has a saying: "Thoughts are things". Right now I would very much like for my thoughts to become things.

The creative center of my brain is protesting the fact that I haven't had a real vacation in like...over a year. I'm not even talking about going somewhere, I'm just talking about more than a 3-day weekend off work. Oh, that doesn't include me checking my Blackberry (aka the leash) every half hour.

I don't have the leash right now - I haven't been at new job long enough to get one. This is fine with me. But I also find myself in the ambivilent position of being a contractor, and getting paid hourly, so taking days of means I don't get paid. Don't get me wrong, I like the job, and I don't mind 'clocking in' every day, but...

I think it's making my creativity suffer. Or at least my ability to get my creativity on paper. I log on and stare blankly at Word for hours on end (whether there's already content on the page or not).

Or at least, that's my excuse for the week over why I'm not getting any writing done ^_^

There are a group of us working on a couple of novella anthologies. I was on a publisher's site one day (one who's printing one of my short stories in an anthology at the end of the year), and saw that they occasionally consider novella anthologies. They then listed a series of guidelines, and I said "hey, that sounds like fun."

So a group of us picked a couple of topics/worlds/ideas, and we're all basing our stories around this. We have to be done by November, with critique-able drafts ready in about a month. One of our participants has already finished her first draft. She's writing in a different universe than I am. Originally I said "I'm gonna go back and write in both worlds", but given the pace I'm working at...that's not going to happen.

Another of us created the original story that the character I'm writing came from. So technically, she's like halfway done with her first draft, too.

Me? I have an opening and closing scene in my head. And character names that keep changing. When I came up with this idea it begged me to be written. It was so desparate to see the light of day that it was willing to change shape and form almost immediately to fit into this novella anthology. My stories are never willing to morph that early on. But this one came to me in a dream, and haunted me for days until I listened to it.

And I keep telling myself "Just write it. Go back and fix it later if you don't like it." And then I stare at that blank piece of paper again. I even wrote a backstory short story - not intentionally. The idea was already there for the short story and then when I came up with this new idea, I realized the two went together. Like my subconscious knew it all along and had just decided to let me in on the secret.

I wish it would let me in on the purging my thoughts secret. Any suggestiosn for finding solitude long enough to get in the right frame of mind and just write when time and isolation are at a premium?

 
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